Our financial D-Day never arrived. The day before, we discovered that Dave’s unemployment insurance had been extended by twenty weeks. I am free to write a little longer, which is just as well. Each lesson takes at least five days full-time. I am aiming to finish the twelve by mid-August. The first two are already in their editing cycle. I am forcing myself to delay the start of Lesson 3 till tomorrow, Monday June 1st. I need a break and I want to keep the Sabbath holy.
If ever I doubted the work I was called to do, just considering the pleasure this ELL curriculum writing gives me, sends those feelings packing. Then there are the encouraging God-incidences as I write topic after topic.
On the other hand, there’s common sense. Isn’t it sensible that when times are tough that I should be looking for work that will add to the family coffers? Especially when not to work might mean losing our home?
Yet, my writing takes all of my time and I feel called to do. It is work that will count for eternity, and I feel so fulfilled doing it. Every morning I can’t wait to get into it. To get a paying job would take all of those things away. So there’s the rub. Common sense versus spiritual calling and fulfillment.
Then May 30th, I read in My Utmost for His Highest.
“Suppose God tells you to do something that is an enormous test of your common sense, totally going against it. What will you do? Will you hold back?… If a person is ever going to do anything worthwhile, there will be times when he must risk everything by his leap in the dark. In the spiritual realm, Jesus Christ demands that you risk everything you hold on to or believe through common sense, and leap by faith into what he says. Once you obey, you will immediately find that what he says is as solidly consistent as comon sense… Trust completely in God, and when He brings you to a new opportunity of adventure, offering it to you, see that you take it. We act like pagans in a crisis – only one out of an entire crowd is daring enough to invest his faith in the character of God.”
Consequently, I aim to keep doing the work the Lord has called me to do, the work I so love, and trust him to provide. After all, he is Jehovah Jireh, the One who sees in advance everything that we need and provides out of his riches in glory.